make my troubles rhyme

if you don't cry, then you just don't feel it deep enough

things i never wanted
covering every last inch of skin
i don't want it to be this way

i don't want to need to have my life saved
i don't want to need for anyone to listen
i don't want to do the things i do
i don't want to be the things i am

hiding is my way of life
i don't know how to change
i fear what other people say, what they thing
whispers like a razor in the back

i wish i were 'awake and unafraid'
but i'm not
i'll sleep as hard as i can
and i'm terrified of what waits upon waking

no one will every love you honestly
and that's what my life is..

i want to be old enough/good enough/strong enough that i dont need music to save my life, but i'm not. this is a me begging for something to make it better.

these girls are my inspiration.