it is a bit funny, coming back here after all this time. i didn't realize it had been so long, but it has, which is nice, but i'm back, which isn't.

there was a post that showed up on tumblr today about a gorilla who speaks ASL, and was given a pet kitten, who ran away and was killed. this somehow encapsulates for me everything that is wondrous but mostly terrible about this world. we have people who have spend so much time trying to communicate with other the other animals around us, but at the same time continue to treat them as oddities and property. that poor gorilla loved her pet kitten, and all we can do is marvel that she feels sadness, much less is able to communicate that to us.

of course, it wouldn't be so bad if everything weren't so terrible. i think we have long ago passed shooting ourselves in the foot and are perhaps at machetes or something, cutting ourselves off at the knees on purpose just to watch the pretty colors. i have so very little motivation to do much of anything.