so fitting (so fitting ) can't cover it up

which is to say, depressive episode hooray! stress is the shit!

everything else was mathamatics

the answer is x
how many times do you really need to solve for it?

the answer is x
but not if i don't admit it

the answer is x
except when it is y

do not open before christmas

irrational wants beget irrational dreams
throwing myself against the cliff of impossibility
like a wave
only i don't break like water
smoothly parting
i bruise and cut and bleed
how long till i drown?

can i give it up if there was never any reason for me to want it in the first place?

lying, lying is such fun
when you lie to everyone!

if winning feels like losing then i win every time

a sudden surge of jealousy
there are people
i know them
i have touched them
i have loved them
living the life i (sometimes) want

and just a bit
i hate them for it.